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Thursday, December 31, 2015
Hello, I am Isaac.
Disclaimer:
I bear no harm, malice or evil intend in all of my posts
and all of the words typed in this blog
are merely the voicing of personal feelings that
I have towards certain aspects of life and the people that might be in it.
Disclaimer:
I bear no harm, malice or evil intend in all of my posts
and all of the words typed in this blog
are merely the voicing of personal feelings that
I have towards certain aspects of life and the people that might be in it.
Sunset in Bali while dinning at Gado Gado Italian Restaurant.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
I hate you.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Hey bitch, i'm not the back up plan.
You just pissed me off real bad.
My turn now.
(& no, every feeling I had for you died, today.)
You just pissed me off real bad.
My turn now.
(& no, every feeling I had for you died, today.)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Update for today:
Dad is recovering, slowly but steadily.
Lots of visitors but he needs lots of rest.
Appetite is back, fever keeps popping here and there,
numbess in right arm better, can move left toes (damn lucky)
Physiotherapy starts tomorrow if fever subsides tomorrow.
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& then it came to me:
It was never me on your mind all these while,
it was him.
I guess I've done all I could & i'm tired now,
physically and mentally.
Thanks for being there for me at times,
but i know it was never me on your mind,
it was him.
I'm going to stand back now and give you back your space starting today.
You're the first person ever, first person ever,
whom I will "leave unwillingly" heh.
But id like you to know that even though he might love you more than I do,
but that doesn't mean I love you any less than him.
Goodbye, my almost lover.
Dad is recovering, slowly but steadily.
Lots of visitors but he needs lots of rest.
Appetite is back, fever keeps popping here and there,
numbess in right arm better, can move left toes (damn lucky)
Physiotherapy starts tomorrow if fever subsides tomorrow.
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& then it came to me:
It was never me on your mind all these while,
it was him.
I guess I've done all I could & i'm tired now,
physically and mentally.
Thanks for being there for me at times,
but i know it was never me on your mind,
it was him.
I'm going to stand back now and give you back your space starting today.
You're the first person ever, first person ever,
whom I will "leave unwillingly" heh.
But id like you to know that even though he might love you more than I do,
but that doesn't mean I love you any less than him.
Goodbye, my almost lover.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Where were you when I needed you the most?
Where were you when I wanted to feel your hand in mine?
Where were you?
Where were you when I wanted to feel your hand in mine?
Where were you?
“Every man is afraid of something.
That's how I know I'm in love with you;
when I am afraid of losing you.”
That's how I know I'm in love with you;
when I am afraid of losing you.”
As I type this, my dad is being operated on by his surgeons.
I never was scared of much things in life (except cockroaches).
But when I saw my dad lying there,
I broke down in tears.
Tears of both sadness and fear.
Sadness to see the most wonderful person in my life lying helplessly
& Fear of losing him.
I thank the friends I have for coming down, calling me, texting me, bbm-ing me and offering me assistance in anyway possible.
I thank the uncles I have for making sure everything else from the ambulance to the operations was fine.
I thank the cousins for calling and checking.
I thank my godparents for coming down to give us strength.
I thank the friends in places who could get things done smoothly and bypass red tape for us, I really appreciate it. Esp to Chong. (W/o your help, I think my dad would have made it)
Thanks to a certain person who rushed down and being there with me.
It really really really really meant a lot to me.
I promise you that If i alr wasn't in love with her, I'd definately be in love with you.
I hope my dad will be fine now..........
“Courage is not the absence of fear,
but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”
but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”
Saturday, May 8, 2010
"Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now."
everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now."
That fateful night in March when our eyes met,
changed my life.
It has been sometime,
since i got to know perhaps,
one of the most wonderful persons in my life.
Shes just an ordinary girl who changed my life in more then one way.
She was someone I opened up to.
She was someone I allowed to go past the facade I had.
She was someone I could be real to.
She was someone who made me realised that,
whether:
Fair or Tanned,
Big eyes or Small eyes,
Gambler or Non Gambler,
Rich or Poor,
Smart or Silly,
Sporty or Not Sporty,
all these didn't matter at all when i fell in love with her.
Accidentally in love would be the perfect term to call my love for you.
I never thought I'd fall in love with you.
& now I realised I should have told you that I love you a few days ago,
but I didn't. Heh.
No matter what, I want to thank you,
for changing my life in more than just 1 way and for leaving your footprints in my life.
I Love you, baby.
"It is now one of my biggest regrets in this life:
not to have told you,
I love you."
not to have told you,
I love you."
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast.
It is not proud, it is not rude.
It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
& it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
It does not envy, it does not boast.
It is not proud, it is not rude.
It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
& it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
It has been a while, since I've looked at a girl the way I look at you every time we meet.
It has been a while, since I've been nervous around a girl, until I met you.
It has been a while, since I've always held my phone to see if i have a new text, from you.
It has been a while since i fell in love.
Love never fails.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
What happens when the person who you trust the most, lies to you?
What happens when the person whom you treasure the most, lies to you?
What happens when the person whom you treasure the most, lies to you?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
"Everytime you're near,
I feel like I'm in heaven."
I'm at my cousins house now at Jalan Bunga Rumpai now having a BBQ dinner and i'm so damn bloated. Like seriously seriously bloated. :( boo
Cooked the bloody bacons and they ALL look like shit now. Seriously leaking with oil and all. Yucks. :(
And someone brought dogleg wine which sucked like hell too! Yucks times 2 :(
And I think my papa is living the dolce vita! (Latin for The High Life) sitting down by the pool and waiting for people to barbeque food for him and serve him! Haha!
Got interrograted by my relatives about universities and relationships again! Suckssss! But set the record straight this time: I am going to Stephen M Ross School of Business at University of Michigan and am going to persue a bachelor of Business (Finance) majoring in Macroeconomics and Behavioural Finance and minoring in International Relations. And will persue my Masters in Business (Financial Studies) in Stanford Graduate School of Business at Stanford University.
And I have to thank The Government Investment Coporation of Singapore (GIC) to thank for getting me into those places! I thank the Admission offices in NUS and NTU for calling and offering places in Nanyang Business School and NUS Business School, but I don't like the idea of only having 6 months of credit exemption there, and I don't think my GIC liaison would want me to persue my education there either. (both doesn't offer Behavioural Finance) SMU Admissions called too and they offered a "1 year credit exemption" so that sounds more appealing and the fact that SMU scupltures their academic cirriculum over the Wharton Business School in the University of Pennsylvania!
Decided on Uni Michigan already unless some girl I meet sweeps me off my feet and I fall deep in love with her, then SMU. But to be honest, my liaison person at GIC thinks I'm strange. :/
Relationship wise, let's set the record straight, to those who think I am dating Madeline,
no i am not.
I dated her 2 years ago back in 2008 but we didn't get together because we had more differences than similarities. Okay she is a Taurus, same age as me, confident and all. But just no. I am NOT currently dating her. Yes we went out before valentines, on valentines, after valentines, but hey, can't friends go out together too? :)
We're still good friends don't worry!
I used to think Taurus would suit Taurus, hell since Nicole, my first girlfriend, i've dated ONLY tauruses, with the exception of one Aquarius. But then I grew to realise that i shouldn't believe so much in horoscopes and all. But I guess the trait that most, if not all, Tauruses have is their confidence, which genuinely attracts me to them. :D
Okay that aside, set my life straight to my relatives in a 20 mins "interrogration session" around the huge dining table.
But they still want me to bring a date for the next family gathering,
shit. :/
There's church tmrl and to be honest, I feel lazy.
But I'll still go :D Breakfast with Chloe after service!! :D :D :D
Yesterday-
I woke up at 8 am to meet Eileen to take her phone and accompany her
on 90% of her journey to work. Supposed to meet Jackson at Outram park
at 950 to head to Resorts World to gamble but that bugger was late!!!
So called Christy for help over Eileen's spoilt phone; sent it to
nokia care at wheelock and had
1) priority queue
2) waiver of service charge
3) no need to show proof of purchase or warranty card
4) express same day service.
YAY :D went down to Resorts World after that and gambled on dice for about 40 mins then had to go meet Nick to go down to Serangoon Gardens to meet Joline, Stanley and Glenn for lunch at Ministry of Steak. And yes I can enter RWS. My parents are Whales there and their family gets the same privilleges.
1) don't need $100 levy
2) gamble & stay at maxim's suite / club / room at crockford tower
3) free car ride into RWS
4) free entry into uni studios & discounts on subsequent purchases of
admission tickets
5) no minimum age limit. Hell I saw Michelle's younger brother playing
dice! He's only 14!!
YAY! : D
Went to LAN at AMK with Glenn and Jackson after lunch and then back to
wheelock to collect Eileen's phone, hooray for express service!! Stanley, Nick, Joline and Guihao came for dinner and we had dinner at shodoku at heeren before heading to 313/orchard central for desserts and more chit chatting (chatting at spineilli is shiokkk) before heading down to braddell for frog porridge and stingray at midnight!
Headed with Glenn to RWS again to "save" Jackson and finally reached home at 220am.
And today I woke up to Joline's message: "Isaac she is talking about
you!!!!! " I was happy for like a while laaaaa. Boo.
Okay back to the cousins talk!! :)
PS: I miss you again.
Decided on Uni Michigan already unless some girl I meet sweeps me off my feet and I fall deep in love with her, then SMU. But to be honest, my liaison person at GIC thinks I'm strange. :/
Relationship wise, let's set the record straight, to those who think I am dating Madeline,
no i am not.
I dated her 2 years ago back in 2008 but we didn't get together because we had more differences than similarities. Okay she is a Taurus, same age as me, confident and all. But just no. I am NOT currently dating her. Yes we went out before valentines, on valentines, after valentines, but hey, can't friends go out together too? :)
We're still good friends don't worry!
I used to think Taurus would suit Taurus, hell since Nicole, my first girlfriend, i've dated ONLY tauruses, with the exception of one Aquarius. But then I grew to realise that i shouldn't believe so much in horoscopes and all. But I guess the trait that most, if not all, Tauruses have is their confidence, which genuinely attracts me to them. :D
Okay that aside, set my life straight to my relatives in a 20 mins "interrogration session" around the huge dining table.
But they still want me to bring a date for the next family gathering,
shit. :/
There's church tmrl and to be honest, I feel lazy.
But I'll still go :D Breakfast with Chloe after service!! :D :D :D
Yesterday-
I woke up at 8 am to meet Eileen to take her phone and accompany her
on 90% of her journey to work. Supposed to meet Jackson at Outram park
at 950 to head to Resorts World to gamble but that bugger was late!!!
So called Christy for help over Eileen's spoilt phone; sent it to
nokia care at wheelock and had
1) priority queue
2) waiver of service charge
3) no need to show proof of purchase or warranty card
4) express same day service.
YAY :D went down to Resorts World after that and gambled on dice for about 40 mins then had to go meet Nick to go down to Serangoon Gardens to meet Joline, Stanley and Glenn for lunch at Ministry of Steak. And yes I can enter RWS. My parents are Whales there and their family gets the same privilleges.
1) don't need $100 levy
2) gamble & stay at maxim's suite / club / room at crockford tower
3) free car ride into RWS
4) free entry into uni studios & discounts on subsequent purchases of
admission tickets
5) no minimum age limit. Hell I saw Michelle's younger brother playing
dice! He's only 14!!
YAY! : D
Went to LAN at AMK with Glenn and Jackson after lunch and then back to
wheelock to collect Eileen's phone, hooray for express service!! Stanley, Nick, Joline and Guihao came for dinner and we had dinner at shodoku at heeren before heading to 313/orchard central for desserts and more chit chatting (chatting at spineilli is shiokkk) before heading down to braddell for frog porridge and stingray at midnight!
Headed with Glenn to RWS again to "save" Jackson and finally reached home at 220am.
And today I woke up to Joline's message: "Isaac she is talking about
you!!!!! " I was happy for like a while laaaaa. Boo.
Okay back to the cousins talk!! :)
PS: I miss you again.
"I don't want to run away,
You are the one I need tonight"
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
"When it feels like my dreams are so far"
I woke up to a call from a friend asking for help.
She was stuck in a dilemma and did not know what do.
I think the only think derived out from her current situation is that,
in whatever we do, there are ALWAYS consequences.
Caught green zone today AGAIN with Glenn & Jackson before dinnering at Jalan Kayu!
Yummy.
So how have I been spending the last few days? Lets see...
Tuesday-
I woke up this morning to some pretty good news, results.
Okay technically I woke up to Eileen's sms but I saw my results via SMS,
quite happy.
Dist, Dist, A , A, B+, B+.
Went to meet Andrew for lunch at Oriole at Pan Pacific Serviced Apartments, they serve pretty nice food. Had the seafood linguine with a creamy mushroom soup. Yummy.
Proceeded to Shimbashi Soba for lovely japanese desserts again before going to meet Nicholas and walked around Toys R Us! Walked to DFS to see see the brand names and then ended up at Shaw Centre to see Agnes B!
Waited for Glenn to pick us up before going to pick Benito and then going to Ikea to meet Stanley, Joline, Rachel for dinner! Waited for Lianxin to come before heading over to Jackson's chalet over at Changi.
Played a round of mahjong before driving out with Glenn, Lianxin and Eileen to changi village for 2nd round of dinner.
Blackjacked, Mahjonged, Pokered, Diced- the whole night round.
Good night for most of us. :D
Drove out in a convoy to supper at about 4 am and ended up having dim sum at Geylang before going back for more dice. Everybody went mad and started chanting their numbers! :D
Gambled until 8am before leaving the chalet.
Thanks to Weihao for giving me a lift home.
Wednesday-
Went to meet Benito, Glenn, Weiquan & Jackson for some lan with Jack's friends at AMK before catching "The book of Eli" lousy show that has a good and nice ending.
Slept from 8pm - 10am the next day. Shiok
PS: I miss you, yes you.
"Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again."
Monday, March 22, 2010
"Wise Men say,
only fools rush in"
"But I can't help,
falling in love with you."
only fools rush in"
Results is coming out at 8 am tomorrow but to be honest, I don't feel much about it.
Initially panicked for Global Supply Chain, but oh wells.
Picked Eileen up from her place before heading over to Kovan for some lovely ice cream at Ice Edge. Brought her over to Kovan Melody to see the pools before going home.
I love last minute plans.
Okay lunch with Andrew tomorrow at Pan Pacific Suites @ Oriole before Jackson's chalet at Changi.
PS: Mesmerizing.
Initially panicked for Global Supply Chain, but oh wells.
Picked Eileen up from her place before heading over to Kovan for some lovely ice cream at Ice Edge. Brought her over to Kovan Melody to see the pools before going home.
I love last minute plans.
Okay lunch with Andrew tomorrow at Pan Pacific Suites @ Oriole before Jackson's chalet at Changi.
PS: Mesmerizing.
"But I can't help,
falling in love with you."
"That part of me,
left that day."
left that day."
'amoris integratio est'
- Publius Terentius Terence (195 BC-159 BC)
This is a story of a boy loving a girl.
It is popular belief that the best matches made in heaven are devoid of the quarrels and tiffs of everyday couples; That destiny has led lovers together, perfect in spirit and personality, to spend eternity in bliss.
Hollywood would have you believe in magical coincidences and fated meetings.
But this isn't Hollywood.
February 14, 2010 should have been a day like any other. Like any other day, a boy had a quarrel witha girl. Some believe that constant arguments to be a sign of a mismatch, others believe that the best couples or the most in love couples are ones that have no disagreements at all.
They'd be wrong.
You see, the opposite of love isn't hate,
it's apathy.
To quarrel, you have to love enough or be angry enough to bring up an issue. If you were apathetic, you wouldn't care enough to bother saying anything. Like any other couple, Jon and Kate managed to have an epic squabble, only this time, it was on Valentine's day.
He didn't forget, nor was she late. It wasn't petty, but it certainly was love affirming. In between the tears and the quiet thoughts of time spent walking away from the scene of unhappiness, arguments are nature's way of letting both parties know that they both love enough to hurt and hurt enough to know how much they love each other.
Being together is less about fate and more about the belief in your love for each another.
Like all other beliefs, it's about faith. It's the faith that you are meant for each another. In that faith, all disagreements are resolved and bonds strengthened. How did we remember this Valentine's?
It certainly wasn't about the roses, the music boxes that play Canon D or the romantic weekends, it's remembered by the heart aching pain of a couple in conflict and the emotional ecstacy of this couple in love. It's remembered by a story.
A story of how Jon loved Kate.
"The heart of me,
is strong today."
is strong today."
Friday, March 19, 2010
"Our fates have been entwined, baby,
but never joined."
but never joined."
My mother told me that when I choose a girl,
I need to choose wisely.
She doesn't have to match my wealth, status, class, age, religion, maturity, intellect etc.
She doesn't need to be perfect,
She doesn't need to have good etiquette skills.
All she needs is to enjoy doing the same things as me,
engaging in identical activities that both of us enjoy doing.
I don't think we have anything in common,
I'm sorry.
PS: Thanks.
"Cause someone makes me whole again,
for sure."
for sure."
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Oh God I wish,
I could just make you see.
I went to Junction 8 for lunch today. Met Wanda for lunch at cafe cartel and talked alot about how we've been and all, and realised how time has flown by when i first knew her when she was in sec 1 and just came to Singapore from Indonesia. Now shes in JC 1 and all so grown up.
Met Glenn, Jinhui, Benito and Jackson for a second lunch in school after that followed me some "guy bonding" time and then met the APEC people for dinner at Ion! Gaille, Sophia, Tiao Kien, Joy, Mark, Ken, Glenn and even Jackson came over to chit chat! Wel, he got on REALLY well with Gaille! :D
I'm at Benito's house now and my Vertu died on me :( Sucks.
Okay I officially am missing you because i'm looking at my phone and re-reading all my past messages. RAH.
Jackson and Benito are hogging the PS3 while i'm trying to sleep. Sighs. :(
Goodnight.
Cause nothing can stop me from trying.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
"It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep"
Missing you just runs too deep"
I can't believe I'm back to blogging.
Was initially going to change to the other types of online publishers but gave up trying to work ut how they all were and decided to return to blogger. Read all my posts since 2003 and to tell you the truth, giggled a bit at the way I used to blog and all!
3 years has gone by and here I am, officially no longer a student of NYP and officially, unemployed.
There has been many individuals who has played a part, no matter big or small, in those 3 years in NYP and I would like to thank all of them from the bottom of my heart.
But as I told a very good friend of mine one day while walking along the aisles in the supermarket:
"It doesn't matter who is your first friend that we made;
It doesn't matter who's the first person we fell in love with.
What matters is who is still with us as we leave
and who is in our heart as we leave school"
But thank God the first friend I made is still around nearby! Okay technically he is in Pasir Ris now, but yeah. And guess what? Glenn rocks.
Been thinking about life recently and I started to feel that life's getting aimless.
Its like I don't know what to do or want to do anymore. Just waking up and getting the day's things done, flying off randomly, entering RWS and wasting life in there. Oh on the topic of RWS, I think I am Im addicted! But Eileen told me that if I don't enter it for a week, she'll buy me prata! Oh & I told Stanley over supper earlier and he told me that IF I ENTER, he'll buy me TWO pratas! Haha.
I'll continue tomorrow. First post needs to be short & sweet.
Golf at Sentosa Golf Club at 7:30am tomorrow, brunch with UBS Banker at 10:15am tomorrow.
Goodnight.
PS: Oh, I really love talking to you.
"Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying"